my birthday is coming up soon!! im turning 15 how weird that feels.. soon im going to be the same age as i wished i was when i was 8 i thought it would be pretty fun i dont know how to feel about it i mean it feels great im growing but at the same time not i dont feel like im growing yk? im mad im still short goddamit i dont care that people think its cute i want to fit in dresses or shit like that without looking like a kid trying on their mom's clothes

but whatever for now it dosent matter that much T_T

my mom suggested we should made a picnic birthday party i think its so cool!! i love picnics but i hate it when bugs try to eat my snacks there is not going to be a particular theme of it just some decorations of my fav colors ive never been a big fan of birthday parties they make me VERY overstimulated and i have to talk to people ive been ignoring for years its just ugh i dont like them

most of the time i do them with my closest family members and friends this year its just going to be me and family i dont have very close friends to be doing that and i dont have the patience to eat neatly bc im with someone were eating hamburgers im not going to slow down and im eating it as if its trying to run away from me LOLOL ;) but apart that im pretty excited about it!! what it matters the most for me is to have fun and get cool presents one im really excited for are keychains and stickers ive bought online!!

kiss on the cheek to my super cool uncle :x

31/07/25